Friday Night Dark

October 31, 2010 at 5:10 pm 11 comments

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Friday was a great day for me. First of all, the editor at WordPress picked my last post to be on Freshly Pressed. Ever since then the number of readers for the little blog that could has increased exponentially. Of course, I know that I won’t keep all of the readers, or even most of them. There are about three men who commented that I wouldn’t mind getting rid of entirely.

I emailed John Shore, the real writer (as in, writing IS his day job) with the very funny Christian blog (check him out on my blog roll while I’m still getting the traffic to help him out). He emailed back:

“That is a lot of fun, isn’t it? What’s nice is it means you’re on their radar, and so will likely show up there again sometime in the future.”

“Prepare, though, for the inevitable letdown after all the traffic passes through. Afterwards, you kind of feel like the wonderfully fun huge parade just … disappeared on you. Not to rain on what’s happening, which is awesome! Just … be prepared for the inevitable letdown afterwards.”

Still, it was fun to watch the count climb. At first, it seemed surreal. I kept jumping from my site stats to the link to my article on and then back to the Site Stats. Amazing! By lunch, I was emailing friends. 1,400 hits in a day! Can you imagine? By the end of the day it was more than 3,200. The next day brought even more traffic. Astounding!

As icing on the cake, I did something nice for the administrative assistant at my work place, and she offered to pay for my lunch at Pappasito’s. Get out! And then there was a Halloween celebration, so there were people in costume and a bunch of cute little kids running around in costumes and more free food!! I LOVE free food. Free food is the best. It even tastes better. Popcorn balls, caramel apples.

Then, because I hadn’t eaten enough, I went out to dinner with the Mr. Brewsters and another of my former co-workers and a friend of his. I was the only straight person at the table, which is awesome.

I bragged about my blog, which they all think of as an on-line diary hobby kind of thing, so it didn’t get quite the response I might have hoped for. Hmmm…note to self. Pick new friends who find your blog to be a serious endeavor of monumental proportions right up there with the Magna Carta and the Declaration of Independence and that paper thingy that Martin Luther tacked on a door, whatever that was called.

And then I went home. My poor dog started bumping into things and knocking things over and whining, constantly, constantly whining. High pitched fussing at all times. You couldn’t get her to shut up for even two seconds between yelps. It was like an air raid siren. She was obviously in pain.

She’s been walking to the side, leaning, for about a year now. I never got it checked out by a vet because I assumed it was due to those back problems that dachsunds get, and she didn’t seem to be in pain. I keep up with her shots and her heartworm medication. I try to stay on top of her weight so her back doesn’t get worse.

I didn’t anticipate this. She’s only seven years old. Lately she’s been acting like it was maybe difficult for her to see, but she hasn’t been in constant pain. Sometimes when I try to pick her up she bites me. I figured it was arthritis maybe. One day last week, and this should have been my real clue, she peed the bed and just laid there until I got her up. But she never acted like she was in constant pain. I can’t stand for an animal to be in pain.

I gave her a Tylenol PM, and that worked for maybe two or three hours of blissful sleep (‘cause, apparently, I’m selfish like that – Damn dog, I need to sleep; It’s the weekend coming up, and I have social plans.) First thing Saturday morning I threw on some sweats, brushed my teeth, carried her into the car and headed to the vet’s.

Well, the vet’s office is miles away, and there was an accident on the highway we use to get there. Instead of a twenty minute drive it was over an hour with her whining  away in a midsize sedan the whole time. I love my dog, and I can’t stand for her to be in pain, but I also wanted to kill her. I gave her the popcorn ball, and that shut her up for long enough for her to eat it.

We told the vet’s office it was an emergency, and they got us in in twenty minutes. In the meantime, I tell them what’s wrong with the dog and that I gave her Tylenol PM so she would shut up, and I feel like a total shit, like I must be the worst pet parent that ever lived. Why didn’t I at least give her children’s Tylenol? Why didn’t I take her to the vet’s sooner? Because I was afraid that there would be nothing they could do to help her, that I could afford, anyway. That’s what I was afraid of.

First, she gets weighed. She weighs 26.5 pounds. So much for the weight control. She should weigh 20 pounds. The doctor takes blood and examines her. She’s blind as a bat. Apparently, she was only blind in one eye and had been compensating. Who knows how long it was going on before I could have noticed. The leaning thing doesn’t seem to be related, but it’s not back problems. We get the blood tests back, and everything looks good. No diabetes, no meningitis, no eye infection, kidney and liver function good.

The vet says that she can’t know for sure what the problem is. She suspects that my dog is more riddled with anxiety from the blindness than actual pain, but who knows? She says that some animals live happy lives blind; others never adjust. The problem is most likely neurological; could be a stroke or a brain tumor or any one of dozens of things that she can’t diagnose without either an MRI or a Cat scan, and even after that there wouldn’t be much she could do to solve it.

She tells me that I didn’t do anything to cause this, and that taking her to the vet sooner wouldn’t have changed the outcome. She gives me prescriptions for a muscle relaxant and some pain meds and tells me to take the dog home and observe her, see if she calms down. If she doesn’t, then we will discuss the alternative on Monday or Tuesday.

I take her home and give her the meds, and this makes her sleep for maybe three or four hours. Then she starts in with the whining again. I’m supposed to give her the pain meds only every eight to twelve hours, but needless to say, I cheat a little. When it comes time for us to go to sleep, I’ve given her twice the recommended dose, and the fussing is not letting up. Out of frustration, I put her in the other bedroom and close the door. Eventually, the whining stops.

I got some sleep, and I think she did, too. She seems not to hate me for jailing her for the night. I love that dogs have no short-term memory. I pick her up in the morning and bring her back in the bed with me, and she sleeps peacefully and quietly.

I cancelled my plans for the weekend ‘cause I need to watch her and also because if I have to say goodbye, ultimately, that I will want to know that I spent her last days with her. I hate to let her go, but I cannot stand to see an animal suffer, and there is no use in making her continue to bump into everything and live in constant fear and pain just so that I can feel better or somehow less lonely.

For now, she is sleeping peacefully. I wonder how long that will last. There is no use in keeping her alive to be doped up on pain meds all the time. I have a sad feeling that we will be saying goodbye very soon.

If you’re at all interested, you can read about how I met my best friend right here:



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11 Comments Add your own

  • 1. threeblackcrows  |  October 31, 2010 at 5:45 pm

    I’m so sorry. I am one of those readers that drifted over from Freshly Pressed. I love your writing. I subscribed to your blog via RSS. I hope your weiner dogette gets better very soon 😦

  • 2. funandfiber  |  October 31, 2010 at 5:47 pm

    aargghh, I’m crying over your dog. Been there, done that. Watch out, the dog crazies will be leaving you nasty comments.

  • 3. Video  |  October 31, 2010 at 10:57 pm

    The perfect information. Thanks

  • 4. John Shore  |  November 1, 2010 at 7:22 am

    It’s cool that you’re so open about how exciting it i to have a post on your blog be Fresh Pressed. Most people try to act all cool about it. I do. But, as you say, it’s pretty wholly exciting.

    Hey, keep us up on what happens with your dog. I hope she’s okay and starts feeling better.

  • 5. pantheraleo  |  November 1, 2010 at 12:33 pm

    I also found you “by accident”…all the way from Sweden. Do not be surprised if your friends are not excited over the blog. In my experience, there are bloggers and mugglers (borrowed from Harry Potter). The mugglers think blogging is really weird. They may be really nice people anyway, so do not get discouraged!

  • 6. Vendetta  |  November 1, 2010 at 2:36 pm

    oh, please don’t give your doggie tylenol again, it’s very dangerous for them. VERY VERY BAD. Only thing OTC safe for doggies is aspirin, baby aspirin at that. Also, be careful with the dosing of the pain meds the vet gave you, it can very easily kill her, especially if there is a neurological problem. She will just stop breathing, or breathing can become difficult which can slow healing due to decreased oxygen in the blood, and less blood flow. I know you love your doggie, but ask the vet about all meds first. Or at least consult a drug site for veterinary medicine and see what maximum dosing is for that drug for your dogs weight.

    Sorry, don’t mean to lecture, but I also can’t stand to see an animal suffer. <— crazy animal lady here, and RN.

    I hope she gets to feeling better soon. It's so sad what inbreeding has done to pure breed dogs. 😦

    • 7. gooseberrybush  |  November 1, 2010 at 3:08 pm

      Thank you for caring enough to leave the comment. I won’t be giving her Tylenol again, which is why I went to the vet to get the exam and pain meds. I will indeed be careful of the dosage. If she doesn’t start feeling better soon without medicine, then I can’t see keeping her doped up forever. It all depends on how she responds. I am fortunate in that I work close enough to go home to check on her at lunch.

      Thank you again.

  • 8. Amanda  |  November 2, 2010 at 3:55 pm

    LOVE the blog
    LOVE the dog
    LOVE the exciting news!!
    LOVE IT ALL!!!!
    KEEP IT UP!!!!! AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • 9. Tina T  |  November 2, 2010 at 7:39 pm

    First, congratulations on being featured on WordPress. I’ve read several posts here, and I love your writing, although I think that this is the first time I’ve commented (if I commented before, excuse my confusion I’m a mom of teens so my brain only functions sporadically)

    As far as your sweet dog, I feel for you. We have a beautiful Golden who has been suffering from seizures for the past two years. Thankfully, the vet has tweaked the dosage repeatedly and he hasn’t had a seizure in nearly a year. If we hadn’t found a dosage that worked I don’t know what I would have done, because it was heartbreaking and scary to see him seize, and he was so disoriented afterwards. He’s totally my buddy, and my kids would be devastated if anything happened to him, but he’s almost ten, and we just pray that this medicine will keep working.

    I was very concerned that our dog would permanently be doped up by his medicine, and luckily the dosage that he has still had him like his old self, but if we had to go with a stronger dosage and have him walking around in a daze, I think that would be just as bad for me as losing him all together, and of course much worse for him since dogs weren’t meant to exist in that state.

  • 10. June  |  June 14, 2017 at 2:05 pm

    Dont get another pet. You are way too self centered

    • 11. Author  |  June 14, 2017 at 4:38 pm

      And you’re too judgemental, so I guess we’re even.


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